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Ah Siouxsie, I was listening her today. Perfect for just lounging at home.

Ah Siouxsie, I was listening her today. Perfect for just lounging at home.

That Place

When you feel so incredibly trapped and consumed by everything around you. Every little thing seems impossible and out of reach. And your only saving grace is the one person that is keeping you in this place. Stuck. Drained. Depleted. That person is the one who is supposed to love you back.

무조건적인 사랑

무조건적인 사랑

Profile Song

That Man 그남자 - sung by Hyun Bin 현빈

~The song was featured in the very popular Korean drama “Secret Garden”, and this version sung by Hyun Bin is a slightly altered version of Baek Ji Young’s song, That Woman. Included below is a link to the song by Hyun Bin as well as a link to Baek Ji Young’s version. Enjoy.~

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vbhHQ-pDDd4

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-tdR72fMMv8

the Last thing i want to do Is Hurt you. but it’s Still on the list.

~ photography by Eugenio Recuenco


Here [he] is, all mine, trying [his] best to give me all [he] can. How could I ever hurt [him]? But I didn’t understand then. That I could hurt somebody so badly [he] would never recover. That a person can, just by living, damage another human being beyond repair.
Haruki Murakami
from here

have most definitely not been so keen lately as far as updating my tumblr and such and such. likely due to the horrifying amount of chaotic stressors that have entered my life in recent months. am only able to write this current entry due to the fleeting energy bestowed by 8 hours worth of soda drinking sugary (sweet) delight and slight adrenaline remaining from my shift at work.

i digress. young adult problems… oh my!

(i am not referring to the usual young adult angst) i won’t bore with details. [but] maybe some other time. at the moment i don’t have anything terribly interesting to post, but only a few thoughts flickering around in my near exhausted brain about what may come. 

perhaps some korean movie reviews or lists that i enjoy. i’ve found myself infatuated with the self-absorbed, egotistical, yet strangely alluring male characters from those delightful little k-dramas. hyun bin is sex. please look him up and appreciate his truly, truthfully fantastical acting (and/or), his quite lovely voice. thank you.

maybe i should start making more links to some music videos as well? no fun just describing things [plus] very time-consuming. &.i.dont.wanna… 

sugar.crash.commencing.

restraint

Beautiful things don’t just happen. If you want something marvelous you’ve got to make something marvelous.
あなたが必要です

One person, just one. Is it so incredibly and unfathomably unbelievable that just one person can linger there in your life even when they have long been absent from it. Completely, and dimly vanished; living(&likely)loving.someone that.is.not.you. 

Can it be so hard to wipe away their vivid image from your mind: absolutely certainly yes. I truly loathe the responsibility of making these kind of decisions; whether to forget or remember; live on or be caged completely by your unrelenting attachment to someone who may as well be on another planet. Sometimes the cage almost seems worth it, no?

every once in a while, you meet someone who’s iridescent, and nothing else can compare~

天涯歌女 [wandering.songstress]

天涯呀海角觅呀觅知音。

小妹妹唱歌郎奏琴,郎呀咱们俩是一条心。

哎呀 哎呀,郎呀咱们俩是一条心。

家山呀北望泪呀泪沾襟。

小妹妹想郎直到今,郎呀患难之交恩爱深。

哎呀 哎呀,郎呀患难之交恩爱深。

人生呀谁不惜呀惜青春。

小妹妹似线郎似针,郎呀穿在一起不离分。

哎呀 哎呀,郎呀穿在一起不离分。

~Artwork by Jae Liu

c’est l’endroit~~~

photography- Elias Wessel

styling- Storm Pederson

malade

the schizophrenic weather of Chicago has today feeling like spring and i most tragically feel as though i am walking around with a cloud over my head, or maybe inside my head? a cloud of throbbing congestion. the past week has been one long and endless coughing fit paired with a runny nose and irritability (which i apologize for). 

but when i’m not gulping down cough syrup and smearing vaporub across my chest, i’ve had quite a bit of time to get lost in my thoughts.

i’ve considered my life recently and several events that occurred which seemed to have happened in some magnificently mysterious perfect way as to make my life lovely and enjoyable again after a most terrible sadness. someone left my life but soon after new people emerged as if by fate and on the day two weeks ago when one is most likely to feel the sting of loneliness, i was happy. so thank you to my incredible friends new and old and to you Dany and Ryohei for being your wonderful selves.

of course there is more than just the new friends. there are those people that are no longer in my life (mostly for the better) that i feel were holding me back/dragging me down in some way or another. it’s refreshing not having to worry about or being absolutely completely indifferent to all the nonsense that such negative folks can constantly bombard you with. i’m very done with it all. 

done.with.it.

best wishes to everyone ~ have a gorgeous day

veux t’oublier

i tried to forget but you grew roots around my ribcage and sprouted flowers just below my collarbones. all day i pluck their petals but i have not yet ascertained whether you love me or not.